Confession

Can I confess something? I hope dka mgagalit.

You know what, I like you. Not just a friend but greater than that. I just want to say this to you since I cnt longer bear it, mnsan nga I get jealous f mkita ktang talkng to someone who's a bi also. D nman aq mgcselos if I dnt feel anything special for you. Kc yung like eh nag evolve n cya as days turned to months, I learned to love u na evn b4 u quit from work. D q lng ma express for I'm afraid na bka mag iba ang pkikitungo mo sakin. Kya I seek advise kai nonah at sa friend q na kilala krin, they told me stuffs about u. From wat they shared I learned more about u, since d nman tayo naguusap o exchange info bout satin.

D q nga maintindihan why I felt lyk this towards you, kla q likeness lng pero love na pla; unrequited nga lng. U dnt even know nga na I'm always happy kng sasama ka samin sa mga gimick khit na malayo ka, do understnd rn nmn y mnsan nag dedecline ka. Lam mo, mtgal q na sana to gustong sabihin, yun una qng attempt ay nun sa taxi kso d q gusto na sbihin yun na nkainom aq. Yun 2nd nman ay npka epic fail, nwla c courage kya I end up txting it to u. Honestly I'm afraid na mggalit ka sakin dahil dun, p.s nga pla both rain n mira wla clng kinalaman dto. Wla na nga aqng plan to communicate for d mean time, to give way kc I always think negative things na d nkakatulong.

U know what, I thought na u'll no longer communicate with me aftr what I did. Bck n my mind, I knew na cla rang rain n mira imo e comunicate, I certainly undrstnd nmn if it happened. Nun, mira askd u bout sa txt nd u gave a postve respnse, I felt relieve nun. Kaya ngayon I'll wait for d time, that i can clarify this thing. Didn't xpcted nga na i'll get a message from u aftr wat you txtd to mira, honstly was glad that time. Yun nga lng n badshot dn lng, dnt knw f u intended sbhin na u're with ur ex that day. Sa tinuorai, I felt bad pwde mn gud nimo I sulti that u were with a friend; I knw n the first place nga i dnt hold something to you, it's just I'm quite offended. Wla sd q kblo wats running sa imo mind sa pg txt nmo ato, I'll just ignore it, bsag ni ingon c frnd nga I'm winning everyones side, I dnt quite believe it for I know ur winning her back nd honestly i'll be glad bsag sakit cya, for I know that ur planning to have a family of ur own nd wla sa imo vocabulary to get into this knd of relationship.

Ryt now I doubt if the day will come in which I can tell u this personally, I know nga it's not possible but then I'm still hoping nga it will come. Hope the only thing nga I'm holding at this point, I know fate will lead me on that day but I dnt really know when will it be. I'm just here waiting for the time, that i can settle this. Not so sure about what you may say bout this one pero I'll respct watever it is. Honestly I'm quite hoping you'll consider this feeling I have for you. Just give me d que nd I'll court you, promise.

And then the day came, that I was able to tel it to you personally. Good thing nga u asked f there's something I wanted to tell u, kay kng wla bka tameme nsad. So that was my cue to tell it, may gne wla ka nlain o nsuko instead gave me a good response. I know n d frst plce nga there wouldn't be any chnce but dep nsde I'm hoping nga naa. At least we managed to keep our friendship and for me it's quite enuf but then both mind and mind are joining forces. I really can't ignore this feeling, half of me is cntentd of what you said then there's part of me who's still hoping even now. Dnt knw nga if this knd of hoping is good or bad, bsta all I know is that I'm still in love with you. I'm hoping to see u happy n all aspects, nd I'll try to change something in my end. U've teachd me things nga I quite doubt n myself, u actually got a spot n my heart already. Bhlag ingnon nla nga I shud move on or maybe someone will come to my life but there's already a part of me is attached to u na. I hope to see you again in time.

Everything started last 05-17 and last nyt (08-31) I told him personally. I'll certainly cherish every single moment with u.