Gimik, Laag and Everything Else (G.L.E.E): 2012

Confession

Can I confess something? I hope dka mgagalit.

You know what, I like you. Not just a friend but greater than that. I just want to say this to you since I cnt longer bear it, mnsan nga I get jealous f mkita ktang talkng to someone who's a bi also. D nman aq mgcselos if I dnt feel anything special for you. Kc yung like eh nag evolve n cya as days turned to months, I learned to love u na evn b4 u quit from work. D q lng ma express for I'm afraid na bka mag iba ang pkikitungo mo sakin. Kya I seek advise kai nonah at sa friend q na kilala krin, they told me stuffs about u. From wat they shared I learned more about u, since d nman tayo naguusap o exchange info bout satin.

D q nga maintindihan why I felt lyk this towards you, kla q likeness lng pero love na pla; unrequited nga lng. U dnt even know nga na I'm always happy kng sasama ka samin sa mga gimick khit na malayo ka, do understnd rn nmn y mnsan nag dedecline ka. Lam mo, mtgal q na sana to gustong sabihin, yun una qng attempt ay nun sa taxi kso d q gusto na sbihin yun na nkainom aq. Yun 2nd nman ay npka epic fail, nwla c courage kya I end up txting it to u. Honestly I'm afraid na mggalit ka sakin dahil dun, p.s nga pla both rain n mira wla clng kinalaman dto. Wla na nga aqng plan to communicate for d mean time, to give way kc I always think negative things na d nkakatulong.

U know what, I thought na u'll no longer communicate with me aftr what I did. Bck n my mind, I knew na cla rang rain n mira imo e comunicate, I certainly undrstnd nmn if it happened. Nun, mira askd u bout sa txt nd u gave a postve respnse, I felt relieve nun. Kaya ngayon I'll wait for d time, that i can clarify this thing. Didn't xpcted nga na i'll get a message from u aftr wat you txtd to mira, honstly was glad that time. Yun nga lng n badshot dn lng, dnt knw f u intended sbhin na u're with ur ex that day. Sa tinuorai, I felt bad pwde mn gud nimo I sulti that u were with a friend; I knw n the first place nga i dnt hold something to you, it's just I'm quite offended. Wla sd q kblo wats running sa imo mind sa pg txt nmo ato, I'll just ignore it, bsag ni ingon c frnd nga I'm winning everyones side, I dnt quite believe it for I know ur winning her back nd honestly i'll be glad bsag sakit cya, for I know that ur planning to have a family of ur own nd wla sa imo vocabulary to get into this knd of relationship.

Ryt now I doubt if the day will come in which I can tell u this personally, I know nga it's not possible but then I'm still hoping nga it will come. Hope the only thing nga I'm holding at this point, I know fate will lead me on that day but I dnt really know when will it be. I'm just here waiting for the time, that i can settle this. Not so sure about what you may say bout this one pero I'll respct watever it is. Honestly I'm quite hoping you'll consider this feeling I have for you. Just give me d que nd I'll court you, promise.

And then the day came, that I was able to tel it to you personally. Good thing nga u asked f there's something I wanted to tell u, kay kng wla bka tameme nsad. So that was my cue to tell it, may gne wla ka nlain o nsuko instead gave me a good response. I know n d frst plce nga there wouldn't be any chnce but dep nsde I'm hoping nga naa. At least we managed to keep our friendship and for me it's quite enuf but then both mind and mind are joining forces. I really can't ignore this feeling, half of me is cntentd of what you said then there's part of me who's still hoping even now. Dnt knw nga if this knd of hoping is good or bad, bsta all I know is that I'm still in love with you. I'm hoping to see u happy n all aspects, nd I'll try to change something in my end. U've teachd me things nga I quite doubt n myself, u actually got a spot n my heart already. Bhlag ingnon nla nga I shud move on or maybe someone will come to my life but there's already a part of me is attached to u na. I hope to see you again in time.

Everything started last 05-17 and last nyt (08-31) I told him personally. I'll certainly cherish every single moment with u.

YOU

" It's your smile, Your face, your lips that I miss, Those sweet little eyes that stare at me And make me say, I'm with you through all the way. 'Cause it's you Who fills the emptiness in me; It changes ev'rything, you see, When I know I've got you with me "

I've known you already even from the start because you're just the topic of my friends every time we meet up. I'd also asked my self what's with you why my friends do like you, for I didn't find anything special in you.

I can still remember what you asked on a chat that who makes me blush, I wanted to answer that one with " Ikaw" but I didn't. There are a lot of moments with you that I'll certainly cherish, even the tequila puke you had on our TB. I did worry about you that time for what may happen to you, it's my first time to see you on that state and I regretted the fact that I leaved you on the room where I can still be a help. I found you so vulnerable on that manner and they thought that this odd feeling towards you started but it's not that moment. Never thought that I would feel this way towards you. But then fate has it's own will,bka gnyan lng talaga ka misteryoso ang puso.Naks! My attraction towards you started after the TB, when I accidentally reared my head in which my attention was caught by those eyes and smile. Can't even take my eyes out of you when were on the training room one day, from then on I managed to glance at you looking at those eyes and smile.

One thing that I won't forget is when you invited me to church after our shift, was even unsure to accompany you because of what I wear but still I managed to accompany you. I'd told my friend about how I feel towards you and she even shared some information about you. On that chat with her I found out how you were able to surpass the challenges you've encountered on your studies and life, I was amazed on the things my friend told me and made me idolized you. Guess I can't really keep a secret on the people that surround me, for they had an idea about this feelings. Seeing your smile completes my day already, but then time has it's will when you resigned from work. Eventually it made me sad but I know it's much harder in your end and I wasn't able to say goodbye to you (the word that I hate the most). I'm even considered consulting my psychiatrist friend for I always hugged your pillow and comforting it. haha. The sadness changed to happiness (weeee) when I saw you again , when we had a farewell party and birthday celebration. Honestly, I enjoyed every single moment on that night. Even that awkward moment with you in a room were our friends left us all alone. Didn't even realized that I'd leaned on your shoulder that night and that gave me a shock realizing that it's you.

Also, enjoyed our conversation after the party in which you open up about your experiences in life. Deep in my mind I was thinking to tell you how I feel towards you for I can't keep this feeling anymore. Seems like my heart and mind would burst if it reaches it's limitation.(Baka influence lng ng beer haha.) As we part ways that night I even wanted to hug you tight, waaaaaaa.. If given a chance to have a chat again with you, I'd love too.

Honestly, I don't have any intention to feel this way on you, I can't even blame my heart on feeling this way.

CamotEscapade 2012 ( Team Bea )

First serious team building that happened last May 2012 in Camotes Is., Cebu. Didn't even think that it will happen since there are uncontrollable events that occurred but good thing it turned out to be on our side. Fresh from work pa yung iba.

( departure and arrival to-from Camotes, beach, team jumpshots and sleepyheads caught in there. )

Departure from Danao City port